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Name: Ida
Birthday: 1/11/1983
Gender: Female
Interests: bass guitar, guitar, vocal, chinese violin
drawing, painting. illustration,
church, hea after fellowship,
rollersoccer!!!
karaoke
Expertise: super nice smile while working,
sleeping, hea, creating problems, making mistakes, punching dolls,
being a super GPS around San Francisco area (just SF area, not SF bay area, ok?)
Occupation: Illustrator
Industry: Art - Illustration
Message: message meEmail: email me
Website: visit my website
MSN: westjourney@yahoo.com
ICQ:  119906842
Member Since:
8/29/2004
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| 2008金融海潚, 人心惶惶, 原本想試試轉行的想法一掃而空. 心想: 幸好自己上班的地方有 Wells Fargo, McKesson, Accenture等仍然穩健的大公司撐腰, 應該不用太擔心.還是老實的幹下去吧.
直到2星期前突然被老闆召見, 才知道, 失業, 可以如此接近, 如此突然.
哭了一大場. 因為第一次覺得自己沒有人可以依靠. 看到有些朋友雖然沒有工作, 父母會罵會嘮叨, 但還是可以待在家裡, 好羨慕. 而自己呢, 父母不在身邊, 哥哥的收入也不豐厚, 不能寄望可以依賴誰. 不吃不上街不花錢, 還是得要交租. 手停口停這句話, 原來如此真實. 第一次真正感受到自己原來長大了, 要為自己的人生負責. 但仔細想想, 誰都會走上這個階段, 早一點學習成熟長大, 也不算一件壞事. Helen Lau 對我說了一句話, 讓我很感安慰, 她說: 就是因為沒有其他可依靠的, 我們才可以學習單單依靠神.
另外也學習了過簡樸的生活. 以前總是很揮霍, 不會自律. 太在意別人的看法, 深怕比不上別人. 現在卻學習了接受自已的境況, 踏實的過日子.
後來很多弟兄姊妹知道了我被栽員的事, 都很關心. 有些比我自己還著緊, 而且都為我禱告, 介紹工作給我.
Christine, 謝謝你的關心, 好像家人一樣的為我擔心, 放心吧, 我不會亂刷credit card 的.
呀Bill, 謝謝你的那通電話, 一定是神叫你打來的. 因為那時失去幹勁的我懶在家中, send了2份resume 後就在呆等. 你的電話讓我想, 總不能辜負弟兄姊妹的關心, 於是又再努力, 起來找工作.
Kevin, 謝謝你熱心的refer我to your manager, 雖然在fellowship時你, Bill 和 Leo 都取笑我太單純, 天真, 但能與你們這樣笑著鬧著, 身邊的空氣好像快樂起來了.
Esther, 謝謝你的referral, 已經interview了, 雖然不知道結果會怎樣, 但是還是很謝謝你.
Bible Study Group 的姊妹及advisers 謝謝你們的禱告與關心.
Joyce, Lina and Winnie, 謝謝你們為我找 Job Openings.
WCCCC的弟兄姊妹, 謝謝你們午餐時的關心, 紛紛說要跟我分著吃. 那真的是很warm.
Alex, 謝謝你請我食晚餐和跟我聊了那麼久. 每次跟你聊天, 都好舒服,沒有壓力, 也看清楚很多東西.(btw, you read chinese, right?)
Elaine K, 謝謝你的真誠, 關心與鼓勵, 你是一個很好的listener. 能與你禱告真好.
Susanna Sham, 謝謝你跟我聊天. 到你的office執房, 表面上好像是幫你忙, 但其實讓我過得充實一點, 不會那麼容易頹廢吧.
Edward and Gem, 謝謝你們在我人生的每一個轉折點都如此關心. 並讓我有正確的焦點對準神.
哥哥, 謝謝你沒一直催我交租. 這對我是很大的恩典了. 手頭上你給我的好幾個project, 也讓我的心安穩下來.
爸爸, 謝謝你一直都那麼支持. 無論我作甚麼的決擇, 任性的跑到美國花好多錢和時間去讀藝術, 然後又任性的要轉行, 你始終不會對我說一句難聽的話, 對我是如此的寬容.
神呀, 謝謝你. 因為有你. 我不用怕前面要走的路. 因為你都為我安排好了. 你說過你愛我, 永不離棄我, 我知道是真的. 你在我身邊周圍都安排了好多好多天使, 以致我不會寂寞. 並以你的話語鼓勵我, 提醒我. 謝謝你.
另外還有很多很多人, 只是沒有辦法都寫下來. 但心裡是很感恩的.
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| I am a woman
I do believe I have the right to live, not the right to kill
I once was an infant, I also believe I have the right to live, not to be killed.
http://www.fightfoca.com/
PLEASE SIGN THE PETITION!
IT HONESTLY TAKES 1 MINUTE!
This website explains what FOCA is, but basically FOCA stands for Freedom of Choice Act. For all those who don't know what this is, it is an act that future president Obama has promised to sign first and foremost upon becoming president. the Freedom of Choice Act (FOCA) would establish the right to abortion as a fundamental right (like the right to free speech) and wipe away every restriction on abortion nationwide. Basically anything goes, partial birth abortions, ridding of babies born after botched abortions, and any other "unrestricted" type of abortion. Not only that but this act would hold TAXPAYERS responsible for the nationwide costs of abortions. That means YOU AND ME. This act isn't too far away from becoming a reality in the United States, but we CAN stop it, so please sign the petition! Obama may have won this election, but it is ironically up to the youth of the United States to fight for those without a voice! WE CAN CHANGE THIS!
www.obamamustsee.com
www.prolife.com
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| Ironically, a person who fears New Year Resolution prepared the New Year Resolution program for fellowship and act like we should all have a clear goal to achieve this year. Hypocritical? I think that's how you call such a person.
I myself fear establishing long term goal. Why? I donno. Maybe too many things I want to achieve? Too little passion to endure? Too forgetful? Too afraid of failure? I donno.These past few months, I didn't reflect too much. Maybe I felt that I was too sinful and fear to face myself? Pride, definitely is sth that I have been talking about that I have to work on for more than 5 years. Have I improved? Nope, I just learned to act more humble. Or ppl are just too scared to rebuke me. Well...
God, draw me close to you because I myself just can't do it without you.
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| 人的心情其實一點不複雜. 拿起日記一看, 原來每次都是重複著相似的心情. 所以,, 看自己的日記, 總有莫明的恐懼. 因為它告訴我, 我只是不斷重複著我的錯誤.
以為學會了, 成長了. 以為自己不會再抱怨, 會學會感恩. 以為自己會更認真一點, 誠實一點. 不然, 人的劣根子是改不了的. 原來, 我沒有成長過. 我只是觀察到成熟的人是怎麼樣的, 然後莽想著自己是這樣的一個人, 又扮作是一個這樣的一個人.
年月, 除了為我加添了稀虛, 無奈和責任外, 還為我留下了甚麼呢? | | |
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